He knows….

As we were driving back from Indiana in the wee hours of Saturday morning (so the kids would sleep) I took a glimpse at the night sky and was amazed at the vast number of stars to be seen and even saw a shooting star. As I observed God‘s handy work I sat back with a smile as I thought on the verse that tells us that God knows each star by name (He determines the number of the stars and calls them each by name Ps. 147:4 ) Wow, God knows each stars name! Have you ever thought on this? There are billions of stars, amazing. As I meditated on this truth I was reminded that just as God knows each star by name, just as He knows the number of hairs on my head, He knows my every need. There is nothing which takes Him by surprise, nothing too difficult.

When going through hard times, it is easy to question the Lord and even ask such questions as don’t you know Lord, don’t you see what is happening? The enemy wants nothing more than for us to doubt the Lord. Nothing more than to make us question Him and make us think He doesn’t care. Yet, as I gazed at the stars it was as if the Lord said, “rest assured my child, I know, I see and I have it all worked out.”

We find a similar story in the Bible. In Mark 4 we find the disciples who have seen Jesus do many majestic things  in the boat. As they are crossing over to the other side a huge storm rises up and they are afraid. When they look around they see Jesus asleep in the boat. The Bible tells us they woke Jesus and asked him don’t you care? Jesus gets up and quiet’s the storm and then turning to the disciples he ask,”where is your faith?”

The truth is God does see, God does care! He knows every need we have, every problem. Don’t fall for the enemies lies, the God we serve neither slumbers nor sleeps (Ps. 121:4). He is sovereign and in complete control. We can certainly trust Him!

What is normal??

For the past few weeks I have been struggling with this question. As I have thought on this and prayed on it, I have come to the conclusion that there is more than one normal. Let me explain. The world has it’s normal that says to be normal you must have a great job, a nice home, your kids should have all the opportunities out there and the accumulation of stuff is what makes you happy. Next you have your average Christians normal that is seeking to serve the Lord where they are, has a nice home and is trying to raise their kids up in the Lord. Finally you have the Pastors/Missionary normal. They too are seeking to serve the Lord where He has them, but they may or may not have a home of their own. They may or may not live in their home country. They too are seeking to raise their kids up in the Lord, but may not be able to provide them every opportunity and their children’s lives much like those in the military are moved about on a regular basis. Most of us fall in one of the last 2 categories, yet each are entirely different based upon where we are serving and what we are doing.

Since returning from Korea I have really struggled with the effect of this “normal” upon my kids. I have wrestled with what is most important and have even longed for a “normal” life. Yet, that is not what the Lord has called us all to. For some of us He has called us to the 3rd category and the normal there is  going where God leads, doing what He says, and providing the best we can for our children and raising them up with a heart for the world and His Word.

I have determined each person has their own normal and that what is normal for one person is entirely different from what is normal for another. I have determined not to compare my normal to that of the others but instead to embrace where God has us and what He has called us to.

How about you are you content with your normal or are you busy comparing your normal to others or coveting their normal. I encourage you to embrace the normal God has for you. To be content with what He has called you to and where He has you. I will be the first to say it’s not easy yet, I am leaning on God’s Word and trying as Paul sought to do to be content no matter what.

I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength. Phil. 4:12-13

Walking in the dark


We live by faith, not by sight. 2 Corinthians 5:7

Have you ever tried to walk across the room in complete darkness? If you are like me you have a general idea of where you are headed and you hold out your arms in front and start walking. Usually by the time you get where you are going, you have a few more bruises and have stepped on a toy or two, but you make it.

Since returning from Korea this is what my spiritual walk has been like. Lord what do you want, what do you have for our family, where would you have us go etc. At first as usual I tried to figure it out but now it seems the Lord has truly brought me to a place that says God I don’t want what I want, I want your best for our family. N0w, as I wait on the Lord to reveal this I’m finding its a lot like walking in the dark. And that walking in the dark is a lot like walking by faith. You can’t base it on what you see or what you feel, but it must be based upon the One your faith is in. Walking by faith requires complete trust in the Lord. If I allow my understanding or feelings to guide me I’m going to end up with many bruises, but if I allow the Lord to lead, I walk step by step with Him.

Yet, just as walking in the dark isn’t easy neither is walking by faith. So many days lately I have wanted to quit, because it’s hard to just wait and trust when I can’t see what God is doing or what He wants, yet if I lose heart and give up hope the enemy has won. My faith is shattered and testimony lost. After speaking to a friend the other day and through study of God’s Word, it seems the Lord is teaching me what endurance means. That even when I want to quit, I must keep walking and trusting Him. Even when it seems God is not at work and I can’t see what He is doing, that I must believe He is. No, walking by faith isn’t easy because it goes against my natural flesh that wants to see, wants the answers now and wants to be in control. Yet, isn’t this the opposite of what God desires. His desire is that I take hold of His hand, that I allow Him to lead, and allow Him full control. As I do this I daily walk not by sight but by faith trusting my Abba Father to lead me in the perfect path He has.

Dark is the holiest ground, the glory passing by. In the blackest, God is closest, at work, forging His perfect and right will. -Ann Voskamp